What Sherlock Does to Me…And What It Made Me Realize

Let me put the first part of this post’s title in its proper context. What watching BBC’s Sherlock does to me. There. Much better.

All right. This series is only one capable of holding me by the collar and getting me to stick through the most climactic scenes which I would normally escape from. I am not able to watch parts of shows and movies where the conflict is about to blow up. If it were a television show, I would turn the telly off. Or I would dash out of the room if I had company watching with me. If it were a movie I have in any sort of soft copy, I would pause it and google what happens next. If I were in a cinema, I would go to the loo and stay there until the scene is over. I can never do that with Sherlock. And it’s not just because Benedict Cumberbatch is so charming. I don’t know what sort of formula the show has but the best I could do when the going gets rough would be to pause it, breathe, let the situation sink in, and return to watching when I’m ready.

At this point, I’m actually in the middle of watching the last episode of season 3. And yes, I paused it. I have postponed watching this episode in wanting to let the season last longer than it actually is. The only reason I decided to finally watch it was because I’ve been unintentionally encountering reactions about it online and I couldn’t just let people spoil it for me. I had to join the party. It took a lot of strength to push play but now I don’t think I could finish watching it yet.

Do I seem like a coward? Am I making a big deal out of this? Of course, I know the answers to those questions. I also know that it would seem like I’m letting this show have a bigger part in my life than some would think it should. Maybe I’m just not ready.

It’s a common story, isn’t it? We rush into things because we think we’re missing a lot but one way or another we would realize how foolish we’ve been. Perhaps this isn’t just about watching the ending to this season of Sherlock. I’ve been craving for things I see people around me have for the last few months. Call me envious. It’s okay because I really was. Now that I see it more clearly, I am reminded that you cannot have things just because you want to. More and more it seems to me like life prepares us for what lies ahead. If life is a drive, then you cannot just step on the gas to speed up because you’ll inevitably lose control. And you won’t find the break because you cannot pause life like that. I’d like to think that there are signs and lights on the road to guide us though. And I figured I’ll just enjoy this ride and hopefully read the signs well. That way, I’ll get to places when I’m ready to be there. This doesn’t mean however that chasing after my dreams is off the table.  My dreams serve as the gas that powers my vehicle. Now, I think I’m more ready.


February 2014 Playlist

It’s the month of love once again. Though I continue to have a nonexistent love life, this month’s playlist is comprised fully of love songs and songs about love. And since it will be Valentine’s Day  come Friday this coming week, I decided to upload in time for it.

  1. I Wanna Be Yours by Arctic Monkeys 
  2. Le ciel dans une chambre by Carla Bruni 
  3. This Ruined Puzzle by Dashboard Confessional 
  4. Perfect Match by Dev 
  5. You and I Ingrid by Michaelson 
  6. I’ll See You In My Dreams by Ingrid Michaelson 
  7. A Song About Love by Jake Bugg 
  8. Love Be Brave by Laura Marling 
  9. Giving Up by Ingrid Michaelson
  10. Still Young by Neon Trees 
  11. Make Me Fall by Nina Nesbitt 
  12. I See Love by Passenger 
  13. Heart by Stars

January 2014 Playlist

Aside from the songs from Disney’s Frozen, here are the songs I’ve been listening to this month. Some are old. Some are new.

  1. Dreams  by The Temper Trap
  2. Those Days  by Lucy Schwartz 
  3. The Starting Line by Keane
  4. Demons by Imagine Dragons
  5. Ain’t No Hat 4 That  by Robin Thicke
  6. Islands by Sara Bareilles
  7. The City by The 1975 
  8. If I’d Found the Right Words to Say by Snow Patrol
  9. It’s All Over  by Broken Family Band 
  10. Let Her Go  by Passenger 
  11. Two Fingers by Jake Bugg 
  12. I Want the Sky by Lucy Schwartz 
  13. Say Something by A Great Big World (feat. Christina Aguilera)

November 2013 Playlist

This month has been a lazy drag. With the return to academics and the wait for the most awaited season of the year, the songs below helped liven up my days. Interestingly, old favorites made it to the list.

1. The Lovers Are Losing by Keane

2. Songbird by Oasis

3. Other Towns and Cities by Camera Obscura

4. Waiting in Vain by Annie Lennox

5. Help is Around the Corner by Coldplay

6. Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off by Panic At The Disco

7. Melodies by Madison Beer

8. Somedays by Regina Spektor

9. I Will by Matchbox 20

10. Lost At Sea by Zedd feat. Ryan Tedder

11. Not A Bad Thing by Justin Timberlake

12. Animal by Neon Trees

13. Human by Christina Perri

14. Heard It All Before by Meiko

15. November by Gabrieele Aplin

16. Smile by Lily Allen

17. Delicate by Damien Rice

18. Distance by Christina Perri

June-September 2013 Playlist

I am greatly aware of how I neglected my blog for the past months. My excuse would be the demanding semester I’ve had. And I kid you not when I say it drained me more than ever before. Here I present you the songs that were my companions through that hell. They seem to have no apparent connection to what I’ve been through but they were of help. These songs perked me up when I was about to sleep, put me to sleep when I consumed too much caffeine, and allowed me snippets of leisure through busy days.

  1. Brave – Sara Bareilles 
  2. All of Me – John Legend
  3. Girlfriend – Icona Pop
  4. How Long Will I Love You – Ellie Goulding
  5. Panic Cord – Gabrielle Aplin
  6. The Good Life – Robin Thicke
  7. Work B*tch – Britney Spears
  8. Blue Ocean Floor – Justin Timberlake
  9. Royals – Lorde
  10. Moment I Knew – Taylor Swift
  11. Wings – Birdy
  12. Tomorrow – John Legend
  13. Bravado – Lorde
  14. Treasure – Bruno Mars
  15. Way in the World – Nina Nesbitt
  16. December – Sara Bareilles
  17. All Night – Icona Pop
  18. The Love Club – Lorde